Dear lovely/ beautiful/ handsome bloggers and readers,
This may seem very weird that I am writing a blog post in a form of a letter but hey I was never that traditional anyway LOL! I just wanted to do a quick life update. Although I blog a lot about beauty and fashion, my other goal is to spread positivity. Of course, how can I do that without keeping that promise myself? This is meant to share my story of how negative I was and how I have changed and the things that has been happening to me since.
To some I come off as bubbly and happy but I always felt shy and unknown. I rarely wanted to do things to gain much attention on myself yet I had SO much to share. When it came to school I would speak up and share my thoughts but I always knew I wanted to build something for myself based off of my interests. There was a time where I was surrounded by negative people and unfortunately made wrong decisions in my life. Those choices were never “too late” issues luckily. One night I knew if I did not fix my attitude, respect my parents, find a better crowd and believe in myself more…my dreams would never come true. My friends would move on and go on to better and I would always be stuck. So I made three promises to myself:
1. Don’t stop on the account of others. I have dreams and goals that are meant to benefit my happiness and others along the way. Why should I fear if a friend says: “Oh you blog? Oh you do YouTube videos? That is weird.” This is part of my passion therefore I will respect myself enough to carry out my goals.
2. Wake up in the morning and say one positive thing or what I appreciate. Many may not know but I do have Crohns Disease which did cause some of my negative attitude and “why me” phase but since I vowed to change I have decided to see the good as opposed to the bad. I can walk, smile, breathe, laugh, and have all these amazing abilities. What gives me the right to ever complain? People have illnesses, get hurt, go through depression, and at the end it is the hand we have been dealt, overcoming and acceptance makes us stronger. Life is not easy, but can be manageable by embracing the good.
3. Respect others. I used to think that I would treat people the way they treat me. Which is wrong to me now. My parents taught me to respect and be kind. However they also told me to be smart and not let others take advantage of me. If someone is rude why should I lower myself to their standards? Maybe they do not know better, and hopefully my kindness can knock some sense into them. Also it catches rude people off guard, as to why you are not reacting. Bullies and negative people love company, however kindness is their biggest fear. ( If you are getting severely bullied, PLEASE let someone know, ask an official for help. NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO BULLY YOU!)
I am not guaranteeing that you can be more positive over night. It takes time and goodness who knows how many times I would get mad and just not want to care. However, when I saw the benefits of my happiness and confidence I wanted to keep on my goals. My life seemed somewhat brighter. My heart felt lighter, I could think more clearly, laugh more loudly, smile more often. Best of all, I had courage. Courage to blog, keep doing videos on YouTube (mess up but do it AGAIN) and to simply keep going. Soon, I was not telling myself to help others, I WANTED to from the bottom of my heart.
You are never alone. Whether you believe it or not, there are one or two special people in your life willing to help you and listen. GOOD PEOPLE DO EXIST!
Hope this helps and feel free to share your stories with me as well. Love you all <3
(Photo from Instagram, Khloe Kardashians page. I actually like her, she keeps it real)